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Fitting in
I kinda feel lost. I kinda feel like I don't fit in. It's werid, but latley, I just don't feel like I belong. I have a lot to do, but it seems like I have no where to go. I feel like my life has no direction! I don't know what has changed, and I cannot recall feeling this way before.
I was at Bearracuda tonight, and I felt like I was a major outsider, I could not figure out how to break into what was going on there. There were plenty of people who know me, and I know them, but I could just not get into ther converstaions, or the grove of the environment.
When I got there, I did have a nice converstaion with one guy who I knew, who is about my age, but I just could not talk to others. I was sitting there helpless!
I think it is probably because I am practically living alone. Before Christmas, there was always someone here. The roomate, or the boyfriend. I don't have either of them here anymore. I am probalby just feeling lonely! And while going out I thought was supposed to help curb that, it does not seem to be working.
The one thing I have really enjoyed this past month is going country dancing with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
telecommunicate! TERPSICHORE, or Kira as I called him the other night. My dance muse. Thanks J.P.
I think I am going to start spending my weekends at home, except for Sundance Saloon. Catch up on tv, watch netflix dvd's, work on Stompede planning. Spring clean the apartment. Definatly do other things then go out to the bars.
It is weird, I didn't know being so popular would feel so lonely.
I was at Bearracuda tonight, and I felt like I was a major outsider, I could not figure out how to break into what was going on there. There were plenty of people who know me, and I know them, but I could just not get into ther converstaions, or the grove of the environment.
When I got there, I did have a nice converstaion with one guy who I knew, who is about my age, but I just could not talk to others. I was sitting there helpless!
I think it is probably because I am practically living alone. Before Christmas, there was always someone here. The roomate, or the boyfriend. I don't have either of them here anymore. I am probalby just feeling lonely! And while going out I thought was supposed to help curb that, it does not seem to be working.
The one thing I have really enjoyed this past month is going country dancing with
telecommunicate! TERPSICHORE, or Kira as I called him the other night. My dance muse. Thanks J.P.I think I am going to start spending my weekends at home, except for Sundance Saloon. Catch up on tv, watch netflix dvd's, work on Stompede planning. Spring clean the apartment. Definatly do other things then go out to the bars.
It is weird, I didn't know being so popular would feel so lonely.
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I believe that many things go in natural cycles. Definitely listen to your inner voice and see what will make you happy now. It may not be the same things that "worked" before.
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IMHO, it is also sometimes good to find out how to be comfortable just being by yourself. Take stock in what you like about you and how, when you are comfortable, you can share that "fabulous you-ness" with other people.
There is a LOT of you to love (and no, that is NOT a size joke, cock or waist). And I for one, do!
Also, if I remember correctly, you blogged in the past the power of telling people what you need or want, and I bet this post will get a lot of attention from folks who care and want to make you feel wanted for company.